answering allll of your questions... q&a

Aspyn Ovard
29 May 202417:12

Summary

TLDRIn this Q&A vlog, the busy mother of three candidly shares her postpartum experiences, comparing them to her previous two times and expressing that this recovery feels the most challenging yet. She discusses the possibility of a fourth child, her current favorite TV shows, and her thoughts on minimalism in baby products. The vlogger also addresses her past business endeavors, her NICU experience, and her content creation plans for the next five years. She reflects on her past YouTube content, expressing a desire for more privacy for her children, and shares her feelings about closing the chapter on pregnancy and newborns. Lastly, she explains why she has not yet shared her new baby's name, aligning with her new approach to sharing less personal information online.

Takeaways

  • πŸ‘Ά The vlogger is adjusting to life with a third baby and finds it to be the most challenging postpartum experience compared to her previous two.
  • 🍼 She is currently trying out different flavors of protein shakes from Clean Simple Eats, which is not a sponsored product.
  • πŸ€” The vlogger is unsure if she wants a fourth child, but is treating her current newborn as her last.
  • πŸ“± She recommends using a baby tracker app to monitor the newborn's sleep, feeding, and diaper changes to maintain a routine and stay organized.
  • πŸ“š She suggests taking courses like 'Taking Care of Babies Newborn Sleep' and 'The Lactation Link Breastfeeding Course' for structured learning.
  • 🏑 The vlogger is considering moving to California but is still in the thought process.
  • πŸ“Ί She is currently watching 'Buying Beverly Hills' on Netflix and 'Survivor', with plans to start 'Sex and the City'.
  • πŸ‘ΆπŸš« She lists baby products she finds unnecessary, such as wipe warmers, diaper trash cans, and shoes for babies.
  • πŸ‘— Regarding her clothing store, she confirms that she will not reopen it and is focusing on her family life.
  • πŸ›Œ She finds the SN (likely a type of bassinet or crib) helpful for her newborn who doesn't sleep well in a regular bassinet.
  • πŸ₯ The vlogger had a positive NICU experience due to having a private room and her baby not having any major health concerns.
  • πŸ’Ό She plans to continue content creation for the next five years as long as it provides for her family and makes sense.
  • πŸ’‡ She is content with her current hair color and does not plan to go blonde again, especially not as blonde as she was before.
  • πŸ™…β€β™€οΈ She does not miss sharing more of her children's lives and relationships and wishes she had shared less in the past.
  • πŸ‘΅ The vlogger does not have a nanny with consistent hours but has a babysitter who helps with the kids and light housekeeping.
  • 🚫 She feels obligated to keep going despite challenges because she has no other choice.
  • 🀰 She has mixed feelings about closing the chapter on pregnancy and newborns, finding it sad to realize it might be the last time.
  • πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ She has not shared her newborn's name and is unlikely to do so, preferring to keep more personal information private.

Q & A

  • What is the main topic of the vlog?

    -The main topic of the vlog is a Q&A session where the vlogger discusses her life postpartum after having her third baby, her feelings about the newborn phase, and various aspects of her daily life and routines.

  • How does the vlogger describe her experience with her third baby compared to her previous postpartum experiences?

    -The vlogger describes her experience with her third baby as the hardest adjustment, which makes sense to her because the more children one has, the harder the adjustment is expected to be.

  • What is the vlogger's current stance on having a fourth baby?

    -The vlogger feels that her third baby might be her last, and she is treating this baby as her last. She is not considering having a fourth baby at the moment, although she is only 28 years old.

  • What advice does the vlogger give for first-time parents during the newborn phase?

    -The vlogger suggests using a baby tracker app to keep track of the baby's sleep, diaper changes, and feeding times. She also recommends newborn sleep and breastfeeding courses for structured learning.

  • What are some baby products the vlogger considers unnecessary or overrated?

    -The vlogger mentions that a wipe warmer and a diaper pail are unnecessary. She also believes that babies do not need shoes or socks, suggesting footed clothes instead.

  • What is the status of the vlogger's clothing store, Lua & Gray?

    -The vlogger confirms that she does not plan to reopen Lua & Gray, her clothing store, which has been closed for about a year. She is focusing on her family and does not see herself returning to the clothing business.

  • How does the vlogger find the SN bassinet for her baby?

    -The vlogger finds the SN bassinet helpful, especially since her baby does not like to sleep in a regular bassinet. The SN bassinet rocks and soothes the baby, which has been beneficial for her newborn.

  • What was the vlogger's experience like in the NICU with her newborn?

    -The vlogger had a positive experience in the NICU because they had a private room, and her baby was doing well and only needed extra help due to being born early.

  • Does the vlogger see herself continuing content creation in the next five years?

    -The vlogger expects to continue content creation for the next five years as long as it makes sense for her and she can continue to provide for her family.

  • What are the vlogger's thoughts on sharing her children's lives online now compared to the past?

    -The vlogger wishes she had shared less of her children's lives online from the beginning. She does not miss sharing as much as she used to and values keeping her family more private now.

  • Why doesn't the vlogger share her new baby's name?

    -The vlogger has chosen not to share her new baby's name to align with her current approach of sharing less personal information about her children online for their safety.

Outlines

00:00

πŸŽ₯ Vlog Introduction and Q&A Session

The vlogger begins by greeting viewers and setting the stage for a Q&A session. She mentions her busy life, especially with the addition of her third child, and expresses her excitement to catch up with her audience. While preparing to film, she discusses the logistics of setting up her mirror and having a protein shake for breakfast, a product from 'Clean Simple Eats' which she clarifies is not sponsored. She feels her brain is scrambled but is eager to answer questions, sharing that she's currently out of her postpartum recovery phase and reflecting on the adjustment from having two to three children, which she finds harder than others might suggest.

05:02

πŸ‘Ά Thoughts on Postpartum Recovery and Future Family Planning

The vlogger delves into her experiences with postpartum recovery, comparing it with her previous experiences and admitting that she feels more 'spread thin' now. She addresses the question of having a fourth child, stating that she considers her current newborn to be her last, although she is not entirely certain. She also shares tips for first-time parents to enjoy the newborn phase, recommending the use of a baby tracking app to maintain a sense of order and routine, and suggests courses for breastfeeding and newborn sleep as valuable resources.

10:02

πŸ“š Personal Life and Product Recommendations

The vlogger shares her current TV interests, mentioning shows like 'Buying Beverly Hills' and 'Survivor', and her intention to watch 'Sex in the City'. She discusses minimalism in baby product choices, advising against certain items like wipe warmers and diaper trash cans, and emphasizes that babies do not need shoes or socks. She also talks about her past business, a clothing store, and confirms that she does not plan to reopen it due to her focus on her family and the challenges of balancing work with raising children.

15:03

πŸ›οΈ Experience with Baby Sleep Solutions and NICU

The vlogger discusses her experience with the SN bassinet, also known as the Snoo, which she rents and finds helpful for soothing her baby. She recommends it but advises viewers to try other options first. She also shares her baby's preference for formula over breast milk due to an apparent allergy and her positive experience in the NICU, where she had a private room and a baby who needed minimal medical intervention. She expresses her intention to continue content creation for the foreseeable future, as long as it supports her family.

πŸ’‡ Personal Reflections and Future Outlook

The vlogger reflects on her hair color preferences, stating she is content with her current color and does not plan to go blonde again. She discusses her feelings about sharing her children's lives online, expressing no regret but acknowledging a shift in her approach to privacy. She also talks about the tasks performed by her babysitter and her reasons for not sharing her new baby's name, aligning with her desire for increased privacy. She concludes by expressing the bittersweet emotions of potentially closing the chapter on pregnancy and newborns.

πŸ‘‹ Closing Thoughts and Final Q&A

In the final paragraph, the vlogger addresses her choice not to share her new baby's name, in line with her new approach to privacy. She explains that she wishes to keep her children's legal names off the internet and may eventually share a nickname. She also briefly mentions her makeup routine and the tasks she plans to accomplish while her babysitter is present. The vlogger concludes the vlog by expressing her love for her children and her acceptance of their current 'survival mode', looking forward to her next video.

Mindmap

Keywords

πŸ’‘Postpartum

Postpartum refers to the period following childbirth, during which a woman's body undergoes various physiological and psychological changes as it returns to its pre-pregnancy state. In the video, the speaker discusses her postpartum experience after having her third baby, noting that it feels like the hardest adjustment compared to her previous experiences. She mentions feeling 'spread thin' and overwhelmed, which are common sentiments among new mothers, especially those with multiple children.

πŸ’‘Newborn Phase

The newborn phase is the initial period of a baby's life, typically the first few weeks or months, during which the baby is highly dependent on the parents for care and feeding. The video's speaker provides tips for first-time parents on how to navigate this phase, such as using a baby tracker app to monitor the baby's activities like sleep and feeding. This advice is crucial for managing the chaos that often accompanies caring for a newborn.

πŸ’‘Baby Tracker App

A baby tracker app is a digital tool designed to help parents monitor and record various aspects of their baby's daily routine, such as sleep, feeding, and diaper changes. In the video, the speaker mentions using such an app to keep track of her newborn's activities, which helps her maintain a sense of order and manage the baby's needs more effectively.

πŸ’‘Breastfeeding Course

A breastfeeding course is an educational program designed to provide expectant mothers with knowledge and skills related to breastfeeding. The speaker in the video recommends taking a course like 'the lactation link breastfeeding course' if one wishes to breastfeed, highlighting the value of structured learning in this area.

πŸ’‘Minimalist Parenting

Minimalist parenting refers to an approach where parents aim to reduce unnecessary items and focus on what is truly essential for their children's well-being. The video's speaker discusses this concept by listing baby products she considers unnecessary, such as a wipe warmer and a diaper trash can, advocating for a more streamlined approach to baby gear.

πŸ’‘SN (Snoo)

SN, or Snoo, refers to a smart sleep system designed by Happiest Baby, which includes a bassinet that can soothe and rock a baby to sleep. The speaker in the video talks about her experience using the Snoo for her newborn, mentioning that it has been helpful for her baby who wakes up frequently and has difficulty sleeping in a regular bassinet.

πŸ’‘NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit)

NICU stands for Neonatal Intensive Care Unit, which is a specialized hospital unit that provides intensive care to ill or premature newborns. The speaker shares her positive experience in the NICU, where she had a private room and her baby was well cared for, which contributed to a less stressful situation.

πŸ’‘Content Creation

Content creation refers to the process of generating various forms of content, such as videos, blogs, or social media posts, typically for an audience. The speaker in the video contemplates her future in content creation, stating that she plans to continue as long as it makes sense for her and provides for her family.

πŸ’‘Natural Hair Color

Natural hair color refers to the original color of a person's hair as it grows out of the scalp, without any artificial dyes or treatments. The speaker in the video expresses her newfound appreciation for her natural hair color, which she has not dyed since December 2022, and she does not see herself going blonde again.

πŸ’‘Privacy

Privacy, in the context of the video, refers to the speaker's decision to limit the amount of personal information she shares online, especially regarding her children. She expresses a desire to have shared less of her children's lives in the past and chooses not to share her new baby's name to protect her child's privacy.

πŸ’‘Survival Mode

Survival mode is a colloquial term used to describe a situation where one is barely managing to cope with a challenging circumstance, often due to overwhelming demands or stress. The speaker uses this term to describe her current state of juggling multiple responsibilities, including caring for three young children.

Highlights

The vlogger discusses her current life with three children, feeling overwhelmed but excited to catch up with her audience.

She shares her breakfast choice of a Peaches and Cream protein shake, trying out flavors from Clean Simple Eats.

The vlogger mentions not being sponsored by Clean Simple Eats but wishes she was, as she enjoys their product.

She admits feeling scattered and disoriented, possibly due to the recent birth of her third child.

The vlogger expresses her surprise at how people find going from two to three children easy, as she finds it the hardest.

She is unsure if she will have a fourth child but is currently treating her third as her last.

The vlogger recommends using a baby tracker app to manage the newborn phase and establish a routine.

She suggests taking courses like the Newborn Sleep Course and Lactation Link for breastfeeding education.

The vlogger is considering moving to California but is still in the thought process.

She is currently watching 'Buying Beverly Hills' and 'Survivor', and plans to start 'Sex in the City'.

The vlogger lists baby products she finds unnecessary, such as wipe warmers and diaper trash cans.

She shares her thoughts on not reopening her clothing store, Lua & Gray, due to her current life situation.

The vlogger discusses the adjustment from two to three children and her experience with her newborn in the NICU.

She recommends the SN bassinet, also known as the Snoo, for helping soothe and manage her baby's sleep.

The vlogger shares her positive NICU experience due to having a private room and her baby's good health.

She plans to continue content creation for the next five years as long as it makes sense for her family.

The vlogger is content with her current hair color and has no plans to go blonde again.

She expresses no regrets about sharing less about her children's lives and relationships.

The vlogger discusses the tasks her babysitter performs and clarifies the difference between a babysitter and a nanny.

She talks about coping with feeling overwhelmed by simply having no choice but to keep going.

The vlogger finds it interesting and somewhat sad to close the chapter on pregnancy and newborns.

She has not shared her new baby's name and does not plan to, in line with her decision to share less about her children.

Transcripts

00:00

[Music]

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hello guys and welcome to today's Vlog

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it's just going to be a Q&A today

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because life has been crazy it's been so

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busy especially since having like a

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third baby and everything I literally

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feel like I'm just spread so thin so I'm

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excited to do a little Vlog and Q&A and

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just like catch up with you guys and I'm

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going to get ready while I do this

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trying to figure out where I should put

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my mirror if I want to like actually set

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it here or if I want to hold it okay I

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guess put it right there also have my

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protein shake for

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breakfast this is Peaches and Cream I'm

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trying out a couple different flavors

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usually I like vegan protein powder but

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I've been trying out clean simple eats

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this is not sponsored by them I wish it

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was cuz I feel like they sponsor all of

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my friends but I got a couple of their

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little like individual protein powder

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packs to try out so I've been trying out

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some of their flavors today we have

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peaches and cream pretty yummy but we're

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going to go ahead and start with the

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questions I literally feel like my brain

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is like scrambled so hopefully I can

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pull it together to film this today I

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didn't even have to get up with the baby

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last night she only woke up once which

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is amazing and Parker got up with her

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and gave her a bottle so it should feel

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rejuvenated but I do not so anyways

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first question how are you feeling

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postpartum the third time and how does

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it compare to the other two times so

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this has definitely been I feel like the

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hardest adjustment which makes sense

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obviously because the more kids you have

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like it makes sense that it's going to

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be harder even though a lot of people

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say going from 2 to three is like very

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easy I don't know why they say that I

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really do not know I wouldn't say this

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is actually my hardest actually I don't

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know if I would say this is my hardest

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like postpartum recovery I feel like I'm

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like so out of that now because it's

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been a while I don't even know how many

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weeks old a baby is now maybe like 10

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like I have no idea because time is just

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going by so fast and I cannot keep up

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with literally anything I feel spread

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very thin that's how I will answer that

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question next question though is would

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you ever consider having a fourth baby

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and I feel like this is my last baby I'm

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treating this like it's my last baby do

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I feel like I need to decide now no

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because I'm only 28 and I literally have

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a newborn it's very easy for me to not

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want to think about like getting

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pregnant again do I think I will have a

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fourth baby no but am I 100% sure also

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know tips for enjoying the newborn phase

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of the first timer when everything will

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feel like a lot I feel like one of my

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biggest things that was most helpful for

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me is tracking what my baby does on an

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app I feel like some people would maybe

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like hate doing this and it would

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overwhelm them but I feel overwhelmed if

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I don't do it so I just use the baby

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Tracker app and you can track like their

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sleep their diapers you're pumping you

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can basically track like everything so I

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like to track when my baby is sleeping

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and awake and when my baby's eating

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because I usually try to feed them like

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every 3 hours that's like what you're

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supposed to do with newborn like 3 hours

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or more but I just feel like sometimes

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it feels too chaotic and I feel like I

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don't know what's going on if I can't

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look at the app and be like wait how

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long have they been awake wait how long

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ago did I feed them obviously you can

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like look at the clock and be like he

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I'm feeding my baby at one but it's just

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too hard to like keep track of that

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every single time so using an app to

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just like keep track of when my baby

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sleeps and when my baby's awake

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especially cuz I do like to have my

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babies on a routine not necessarily from

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like the very first day but I do try to

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follow and eat awake sleep schedule

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pretty early on just like very Loosely

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and then I try and follow it like a

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little bit closer as they get bigger I

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feel like when I don't track what my

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baby's doing I literally just feel like

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everything is so chaotic and I feel like

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I don't know what's going on at all like

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especially with more than one baby I

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know this question is about like your

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first baby but I even did this with my

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first baby too and I feel like it was

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super helpful literally takes 2 seconds

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you just like click the button when they

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fall asleep and then click the button

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when they wake up and then also click

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like when they eat I used to time all of

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my feedings and stuff when I first had a

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baby and it was like first breastfeeding

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and figuring it out and I don't do that

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now and I don't think I did that with my

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second baby either just because I was

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like more comfortable with what I was

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doing and I didn't feel like I needed to

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yeah I feel like that is something

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that's really helpful for me and it

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helped me just like feel more organized

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basically I also recommend the taking

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care of babies newborn sleep course and

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the lactation link breastfeeding course

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if you want to breastfeed I love doing

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courses because everything's just like

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in one spot and it's really easy for me

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to just like sit and learn and like

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digest everything you can find a lot of

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info about those things online for free

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but I would rather just pay like I don't

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even know how much they are but pay like

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a 100 bucks to just have everything all

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together and be able to like watch it

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all together instead of having to spend

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a lot of time like researching and kind

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of like putting things together on my

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own yeah I feel like those are my

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biggest tips for like newborn life still

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thinking about moving to C yes still

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thinking about it literally every day

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what shows SL mov are you into right now

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I've been watching buying bever Hills is

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that what it's called yes on Netflix I

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think buying London just came out I

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haven't started that one yet but I've

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been watching buying Beverly Hills and

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then I've also been watching Survivor

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that's what I am currently watching I

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also want to start watching Sex in the

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City so I think I'm going to start that

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soon cuz I'm pretty sure I'm almost done

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with buying Beverly Hills I'm like part

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of the way through the second season so

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okay overrated SL unnecessary baby

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products pregnant and trying to be

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minimal in the early months first one

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that I'm thinking of is a WIP warmer I'm

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sure that would be nice to have but

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especially when your baby is like really

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tiny you kind of want the cold wipes to

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like wake them up when you're changing

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their diaper if you're trying to like

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feed them and stuff because they're just

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so sleepy and sometimes they're like too

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sleepy that you can't get them to eat so

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I feel like a wipe warmer kind of would

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defeat the purpose of like having the

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cold wipe help to wake your baby up

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trying to think of what else it's like

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very very popular I'm going to look up

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most popular baby products oh something

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else that I also don't have is a diaper

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trash I can't remember if we had one

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when we first had Cove I feel like maybe

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we did but we literally just like did

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not use it at all so I feel like shoes

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babies do not need shoes little babies

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don't need shoes and honestly even socks

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my babies never wear socks because they

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just kick them off I would rather just

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have like footed clothes I feel like I

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listed enough those are a couple that I

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feel like I just haven't really felt a

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need for any plans to reopen Lua and

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gray so I'm sure most of you guys

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remember my clothing store that I had

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for a lot of years and I think we closed

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it it's been like a year now and I kind

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of wanted to leave it with like the door

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potentially being open if we wanted to

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like reopen it but I also knew when I

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was closing it that I wanted to have

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another baby and that I just literally

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could not like like keep going the way

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that I was going with work if I was

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going to have another baby and now that

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I have a baby and feel overwhelmed I

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think I'm going to officially say that

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the answer to that is no I don't think

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we will ever reopen does that mean that

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I would never have like another business

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or something when my kids are a little

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bit older no I feel like I would

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consider that idea but I don't think now

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that I'm like so far out of it that I

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would open something like that again and

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do clothing again it was fun while we

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did it but it definitely got harder once

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I had more kids and now I have even more

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kids than I did when we ended that so I

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think unfortunately the answer to that

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one is no was the adjustment from two to

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three babies harder or easier than you

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thought I feel like it's probably been

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about the same as what I thought I was

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very nervous and I did say that her

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being in the niku for a little bit

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didn't like make things easier but it

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kind of made it slightly more smooth cuz

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I could go to the ncu and just focus on

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the baby and then come home and just

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focus on the other kids obviously I

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would have rather had her like not be in

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the ncu and just be able to come

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straight home but I feel like it's been

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about the same as I thought and I

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thought but it would be kind of hard so

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yeah how is the SN working so you guys

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can see right here I have this SN we've

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had it for a couple weeks now but we

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went out of town so I think that she

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only slept in it for like maybe two or

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three nights before we left now she's

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been in it again for a couple of nights

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I feel like it does help and I do like

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it and recommend it but what I will say

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about it is I wouldn't get it unless you

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feel like you need it like I wouldn't

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get it as your main bassinet before you

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even have your baby and before you see

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like how they are and how they sleep I

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don't think it's something that I would

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have needed with my other girls because

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they didn't really have a problem with

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like their normal bassinet but this baby

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does not really like to sleep in her

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bassinet so the snoo has been helpful if

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you don't know what it is it's like a

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bassinet that like I don't really know

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if it has like a motion sensor or what

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but basically it will kind of like Rock

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Your Baby if it starts to cry and then

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if it's like still crying it will rock

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it like a little bit more so it kind of

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just helps to like soothe your baby and

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it's been super helpful since this baby

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wakes up a lot she's actually been a

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little bit better now that I've been

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giving her a little bit more formula I

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feel like she's like allergic to

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something in my breast milk because she

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just spits up so much and she was so sad

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it's like so weird that she's doing

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better on formula versus breast milk but

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she is so I've kind of been like combo

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feeding but since I'm doing more formula

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now she's done a little bit better with

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like sleeping and stuff in general so I

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do feel like that and this new have been

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super helpful I'm just renting it I'm

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renting it for like a month I rented it

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on baby quip I think you can also maybe

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rent it like from their website but I

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was just able to get it on baby quip

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faster and I was very desperate so I

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just did that and I think that the lady

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said this is like their slow season or

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something so basically it was like a

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better price than usual so I just rented

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it for like a month and I might extend

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and do it for like a little bit longer I

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need to kind of like test it out and see

08:39

how my baby does sleeping just in her

08:41

basinet but anyways I do recommend but I

08:43

will say I wouldn't get it until you

08:46

feel like you have your baby and you're

08:47

like seeing how they are and you feel

08:48

like you need it just cuz it is kind of

08:49

expensive and you can get something

08:50

that's like less expensive next question

08:52

what was your nicku experience like I

08:55

feel like we actually had a pretty good

08:57

ncu experience because we had our own

08:59

room since I've talked about it some

09:01

people have been like oh my NICU it like

09:03

was kind of like a baby nursery where

09:04

there's like tons of babies like all in

09:05

the same room and the parents just have

09:06

like a chair to hang out in that would

09:08

have been really hard because it's just

09:09

like a lot to be there and it's very

09:11

draining and just like medical stuff in

09:13

general when there's like nurses and

09:14

stuff in and out and there's like boards

09:15

everywhere and like beeping and just a

09:17

lot of stuff going on it was really nice

09:18

to have like our own private space so I

09:20

feel like that made it a little little

09:21

bit like easier and then also just the

09:23

fact that my baby was doing well the

09:25

whole time there wasn't anything that

09:27

was like very big or concerning only

09:29

reason she was in there is just cuz she

09:32

was early and basically just kind of

09:33

needed to like catch up with things so

09:35

that made it a little bit less stressful

09:37

knowing that there wasn't like something

09:39

that was wrong and she was basically

09:41

just there to like get a little bit of

09:43

extra help that she needed so as hard as

09:45

it was I feel like it could have been a

09:47

lot harder so I don't want to say it was

09:49

good but we got through it and it was

09:52

not too traumatic thankfully do you

09:54

still see yourself doing content

09:55

creation for the next 5 years honestly

09:58

probably I've never really thought about

09:59

what I would do after this because I've

10:02

just been doing this for so long now my

10:04

15E anniversary is coming up it's in

10:06

August so I've literally been doing this

10:09

since I was a child since I was 14 as

10:11

long as I am still able to like provide

10:13

for my family and this is making sense

10:14

for me then I feel like I'll still be

10:16

doing it I really don't have a reason to

10:18

like do something else if I wasn't

10:20

making any money then I couldn't do it

10:21

because I literally like would not have

10:23

time to have a different job and be a

10:25

mom and do this because as much as

10:27

people think like it's not a job or

10:28

whatever it still takes up time so as

10:31

long as I'm still able to provide for my

10:33

family doing this I will be doing it but

10:35

in 5 years I will have been doing this

10:37

for 20 years which is crazy to think

10:39

about but you never know so next

10:41

question will you ever go blonde again I

10:44

really don't think so which is so crazy

10:45

because I used to get like not actually

10:47

offended but when I was blonde and

10:49

people would ask if I was ever going to

10:50

go back to my natural color I would be

10:52

like how can you even say that that

10:53

would look so ugly but I'm actually

10:56

obsessed with my hair color right now I

10:58

haven't dyed it since December of 2022

11:00

so you can see the top is like a little

11:01

bit darker than the bottom cuz it's kind

11:03

of grown out but it's grown out like

11:04

very natural maybe I can take off my

11:06

headband but my hair is kind of crazy on

11:07

the top but I love the color right now I

11:10

really don't see myself ever going

11:11

blonde especially not the type of blonde

11:14

that I was I feel like I would maybe add

11:16

like maybe a tiny bit lighter or

11:18

something kind of like a golden blonde

11:20

like '90s blonde kind of but I really

11:22

don't know if I ever will do that and I

11:24

definitely would never go as Blonde as I

11:26

was but it's so funny because I used to

11:28

think that like my natural color looks

11:29

so hideous and now I think it's like

11:31

such a good color only like half of it

11:32

is actually my natural color but just

11:34

like being darker like this I really

11:35

like yeah I feel like I answered that

11:37

question kind of a lot but I get asked

11:38

that a lot so do you miss sharing more

11:40

of the girls SL relationship although we

11:43

understand why you are not I do not miss

11:45

it at all I wish that I had done things

11:47

differently like from the beginning with

11:48

sharing less of them so I really don't

11:50

miss sharing anything I love not sharing

11:52

obviously I still share like a little

11:53

and I still share like Mom content so

11:55

I'll share like what I made them for

11:56

lunch or something like that but I'm not

11:58

sharing them in the way that I I was and

11:59

I don't miss doing that at all and I try

12:02

to not have regrets but if I could go

12:03

back in time I would share like so much

12:05

less of what I ever shared so no I do

12:08

not miss it at all it's just so much

12:10

better to like keep my family private

12:12

and like not share online so the next

12:14

one kind of goes with that actually it

12:15

says what regrets do you have about your

12:16

past on YouTube like I said I try to not