i'm a mom now

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hi we're

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back kind of maybe I think we're back

how the hell are you I know it's been a

long time since I've posted as you know

I had a baby and so I've been just kind

of like being a mom and adjusting to

that and it's been so wonderful and

so hard and so beautiful and intense and

there's just so much to catch up on but

I wanted to start vlogging again get

back into the swing of it I really

missed you guys and I've been thinking

so much during this time about like how

I can Vlog my life the way I did and

respect the privacy of my baby and all

of that so we're going to figure it out

we're going to figure it out together

I'm doing well Otis is wonderful and

amazing Cody's wonderful and

everything's been pretty good has not

been easy but it's been generally

wonderful and amazing and beautiful I am

going to do a circle Time episode um

talking about my birth and like labor

and delivery and all of that my

breastfeeding journey and all of that

because Otis is getting mainly formula

now so look out for that sorry is this

making anyone like

motion sickness I hope not I'm swinging

I'm swinging outside um Otis is

currently napping o dis is almost 3

months his thre Monon birthday is this

end of this week so that's exciting I

finally feel like I'm able to get out of

the house with him by myself so I'm

going to go to Whole Foods do a little

grocery shopping well he has to have his

bottle first he's going to eat then

we're going to go grocery shopping then

Cody's mom's going to come over his

parents are in town and she's going to

watch him and I'm going to go do Pilates

like I said I don't know exactly what

these Vlogs are going to look like I'm

still obviously getting the hang of

things um so bear with me thank you for

sticking around during the time that I

wasn't posting and just for being so

supportive and so wonderful and so

excited for us you guys really are the

best and I really really appreciate all

of you so thank you every day is

different I never know what any day is

going to look like so that's kind of

going to be reflected in these Vlogs I

don't know exactly what they're going to

look like but but I'm just happy that we

get to be in it together and that you

guys are in it with me so thank you

thank you thank you let's start the Vlog

I'm kind of nervous I'm feeling a little

bit

shy

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hi I started vlogging again did you yeah

well I try I'm

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trying cool can I try

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okay so it's another

day he just meowed right into the camera

bisi brisket and hamy are so good okay

so Otis is asleep he was I was going to

take him to a music class today and then

he fell asleep music class is at like

9:15 he fell asleep at like

8:30 and was like dead asleep and I just

didn't want to wake him up and take him

out of his crib and take him to the

class because he was sleeping so I let

him sleep whereas of course yesterday he

was just awake the entire what would

have been the entire music class so it's

really just everyday is different so

then he woke up at like 9:45 and then I

really wanted a smoothie so him and I

did went on a little Adventure we went

out to get some smoothies and as we know

La is like pretty notorious for having

the world's most expensive smoothies so

this isn't the cheapest smoothie in the

world I mean the Aran I think these are

better than any aroan smoothie I've ever

had sunlife my favorite smoothie at Sun

lifee is the shroom shake and it's got

cold brew in it so I didn't drink it

when I was pregnant cuz it would been

too much coffee but we're back so I took

Otis with me he slept pretty much the

whole time no he didn't he was awake

pretty much the whole time it was very

sweet just kind of staring at me and now

he's back asleep and he's going to have

his next bottle I'm like 10 minutes so

I'm going to show you what we've been

doing for his bottles because if you're

a mom or your you're making bottles for

a baby um or dad this has really helped

us we use formula and we use this Dr

Brown's picture you can get it off

Amazon it's like $10 we basically just

like make however much we would use in

the day cuz it's formula stays good in

the fridge for 24 hours so we make like

how much we would make in almost a day

and then it's just in here ready to go

so that when it's time to eat all you

have to do is pour it in and heat it up

because when you're like trying to

trying to like mix in the formula and

like swirl it around so it doesn't make

too many bubbles Otis has kind of a

sensitive stomach so we don't want a lot

of Bubbles and so we're swirling it

around and then it takes forever and

then he gets really upset so this has

been a lifesaver we have the baby Breza

that a lot of people talk about that

like is like the cure egg for bottles

which is great but it doesn't really mix

it it just kind of dispenses the formula

and the water and then you still have to

mix it so I feel like it just takes a

really long time Chile leave him alone

Chile is licking Otis's hands while he's

asleep oh this is the formula we use

Bobby we use the gentle one I don't

dislike this but it's not my favorite

this has been like much quicker and

easier for

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us okay so there it is there's some

Bubbles at first but then they go down

pretty quickly okay bottle's ready also

I was just thinking about this I am so

excited to be on this journey with you

guys

um and I love you all so much and I love

how much you love Otis but um anything

that we do that has to do with like

feeding or sleeping or what he eats when

he eats how much he eats when he sleeps

how much he sleeps all of that I have

talked to my doctor about and my doctor

it is all doctor approved it's all safe

so if I ask for opinions on things or

things that you guys like or whatever I

would love to hear that but I it's it's

going to stress me out too much if I

start getting unsolicited

advice so that's just like a um little

boundary I'm setting as I enter

motherhood with you all and I love you

and I hope you understand obviously by

the way we're still in our um Guest

House Otis is asleep I have Pilates in

like 45 minutes on

Zoom I was going to show you guys Otis's

outfit of the day but unfortunately he

pooped all over it so

hot bad with a bad

friend with a bad

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friend good morning trying to see if

just recognizes my voice without looking

at me um I'm currently sitting in the

back seat see with the little man hello

we are currently on our way to Otis's 3

Monon checkup which is very exciting I

actually get really excited when we have

doctor's appointments um just cuz I like

to ask the doctor the millions of

questions that I think of I like to get

clarification on everything and she

usually makes me feel better about

things so and I like to see how much he

weighs and like the percentile he's in

and all that stuff oh we're going

through a tunnel hang

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on and then um Emma I'm meeting my

friend Emma who you guys obviously know

from the Vlogs meeting her for dinner

tonight we're having a little little

girls night uh dinner and Cody is going

to hang out with his friends and then

we're going to meet up and my mom is

Babys and we're trying a new restaurant

today after Otis's appointment so and

I'm excited about that so it's just like

a really fun and exciting day actually

I'm going to film his whole doctor's

appointment I think film the doctor too

like you mind if we Vlog hey guys here

with Otis's pediatrician

say what's up say what's up

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calcinator okay we're on our way um back

from Otis's doctor appointment and our

meal everything looks great he's healthy

and wonderful and the doctor was very

pleased so we're happy and we tried a

new breakfast place today so when I was

pregnant we would go to the same the

same breakfast place after every

appointment for uh when I was pregnant

and it was it was a really nice little

tradition wasn't it yeah and we still we

still go like cuz our our doctor isn't

like or my doctor isn't like super close

to where we live we would go every time

we went to the doctor's appointment it's

like a good diner and it's we love it

but like it's not like it's nothing to

like

like you can't just like take someone

who's visiting go pop there for lunch

there's no pop in there it's like a

significant drive right my cousin from

New York Julia she came and visited and

I I said you want to pop there for lunch

like we were like we should go here for

to like for breakfast and she was like

okay and then we drove like 30 minutes

to this Diner and she was like it was

good it she was like it's pretty good um

but it is good it's just like it's just

a diner his doctor is slight it's in the

same zone is but like not as close and

so we were saying like we need to find a

new place to go after Otis's doctor's

appointment and then I learned that

there was this other place out by Otis's

doctor and I said what about this one so

we tried it today and I thought it was

really good and Cody liked it too but he

says it wasn't as good as the diner and

we were having a whole discussion on

what his favorite breakfast places are

and he thinks that the diner is the

Tailor Swift of breakfast food

restaurants so I was like totally clean

no otus spit up on me cuz usually now

there's like everything I wear gets

dirty immediately I have to wash it

after one wear I think I dunked it in

ketchup I I don't even know how this is

possible like how I did this I I leave

just looking an absolute mess okay so

I'm in the closet Cody me and Otis all

share this closet so there's kind of a

lot of everywhere another little

fact about this room that we're living

in is that there's mirror so I never

know like what I look like when I'm

going out so I have like a little mirror

that I do that I use when I do my makeup

but like clothing wise I have no idea so

I usually just look on my phone so if

this outfit sucks just is what it is and

also like my body is just weird right

now because I just had a baby and so

like stuff that used to fit me obviously

doesn't and styles of things that used

to fit me don't really work the way they

used to anymore so I'm kind of like

figuring all that out and trying to

navigate that and it's really not easy

it's kind of like a little bit of mind

but I had a baby and that's like

the coolest thing I could have ever done

so massive shout out good culture Cody

was so excited for me to Vlog cot cheese

cuz I want to show them this take a

spoonful salt it up the salt over the

container I was coming on here hi by the

way I might eat this whole thing anyway

I totally forgot to show you my outfit

when I went out Friday because like my

mom and my friend got here and we were

rushing but I wore jeans and a white

tank top end of leather jacket so it

really was not nothing special and now

it's Monday again I'm making some egg

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salad little bit of t

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really hard I'm really trying to be

quiet what the hell that is so

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good really

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good I'll show you his pajamas here they

are they're these little magnetic ones

they're from the brand magnetic me and

these um have been a serious life

changer they're the best also do not

worry he was buckled into his chair I

just unbuckled him cuz I'm about to take

him out good morning okay so Otis and I

are going on a little Adventure right

now he usually naps around this time but

he is very much awake right now and he

is just chilling and he's being so sweet

that means that we get to go do

something we're going to go try a cafe

that one of our friends out here

recommended to us and so I want to get a

coffee from there and then we actually

I'm going to drive by a Lululemon and I

really need new workout stuff because

none of the clothes that I used to work

out in before having a baby fit me

anymore so I need ones that actually fit

so that I can enjoy working out again I

don't know if we'll have time for both

of those things we really have no idea

I'm wearing Cen charms hat joah Brown

zipup I don't know where this t top is

from it's old dough Brown sweats and

these shoes that are this

brandou

Mo but they're so comfortable I have

been like living in these they sell

these on the Free People website I got

them maybe that's where I got them Otis

is wearing his pajamas because he is

really happy and I'm not going to change

him and make him unhappy even though he

usually doesn't mind it but who knows so

I'm not messing with the happy baby and

he's going on his PJs and Chile is being

perfect boo

baby sorry you guys had to see that you

ready

Odie let's do it wish me luck we'll see

how this goes okay I have like a couple

seconds to film before he starts crying

cuz he doesn't like when the car is not

moving but I didn't have time to go to

the coffee shop that I was going to go

to cuz he needs to have his bottle like

now um so we need to get home but I got

coffee from Alfred and I got an iced

lavender drink and it's kind of scaring

me like a lot like there's a lot of

colors Happening Here piss color

you

know that is

lavender I don't mind it it's not my

favorite but I don't mind it okay we

made it home Cody made the bottle so all

I had to do is warm it up it's warm and

now it's bottle o00 clock Play Time play

time Play Time y

yay

hey big

up that is so true big up the Vlog

there's ham briskets somewhere God only

knows where brisket is we're just

playing Otis is going to have his nap

soon yes he is he's going to have his

nap soon I he smacked it it went like

Super H look at that good

job hi what's up um so Otis and I had a

great afternoon he had another bottle we

hung out he played he napped he did

beautifully I had egg salad as usual

because we have so many eggs let me just

show you the chickens have been

absolutely laying eggs so we try to give

them to like any friends or anyone that

comes over and then we went and watched

Cody DJ he's practicing for his show in

Vegas and so Odie and I went over and we

did a little dancing

yeah he killed it as usual now Cody and

Otis are going to hang out and I am

going to go do a little workout I've

been doing the 12330 on the treadmill

loving that I use the core Club app my

Pilates instructor Amanda she has an app

called core Club highly recommend and

there's a really good like arm workout

on there that I like to

do it's been four

minutes and I am exhausted

already um just wanted to say thank you

for watching it was really fun to Vlog

again I'm getting back into it and

hopefully every time I Vlog I'll get

more and more used to filming with my

child as a mom thank you for watching

love you and I'll see you next

time bye bye